magser | Release Me

Title:Release me
Chapter 12/?
Author:

magser
Pairings:Jared/omc; eventual Jared/ Jensen ; Chris Kane and others
Disclaimer: I'm sorry to say neither of the pretty boys belong to me.....
Rating:NC17
Summary:Jared Padalecki is a good man,trapped in a dead marriage,what happens when he falls in love with someone else?What will he do when forced to choose between the husband he feels he owes and the man who owns his soul?
Word count :1,956
Authors note,: This is completely un-betaed , all mistakes are my own stupid fault! Also just to tell you guys that this fic was inspired by a song, Martina MacBride: Satin Sheets.Oh and now I may as well tell you guys, I didnt post yesterday, cause even though I have written a few chapters ahead, the story has completely run away from me, and no matter what i try it just wont go the way I want it to... It insists on going its own way lol....

Jared didn’t remember much of the drive home that evening, Mark thankfully left him alone to his thoughts and he spent the most of it in silence, staring out the window and feeling like he had just made the biggest mistake of his life. The look on Jensens face, was one that would haunt him for a long long time, he looked so hurt and broken and angry! Jared didnt blame him one bit for his anger, he was entitled to it, and Jared deserved it, he was everything Jensen had accused him of, a coward who couldn’t stand up and take what he wanted and how he wanted Jensen...

But he couldn’t think about that now... he had made a promise to Mark, both four years ago and again now... he had promised to try again, give them a shot, and as his husband he deserved that. Mark had been genuinely frightened at the thought of Jared leaving him, and it gave Jared a glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe they could make something of this.

Maybe if he tried really really hard, then someday, this ache would ease, the few days he had spent with Jensen would become a fond memory, the face of the man who completely captured his heart in such a little time would not swim before him any more, and maybe just maybe, in time Jared wouldn’t feel like he was being slowly ripped apart inside.

Mark made no attempt to talk to Jared the whole journey back, and upon arriving at the house, he immediately went inside, without a backward glance in Jareds direction. Jared heaved a sigh and followed him inside wondering what had upset Mark this time, he had done what he had asked, what more did he want?

He had one foot on the stairs, making for his room and a shower, when Mark appeared at the study door and asked Jared would he join him for a moment . With a confused frown at the hard look of triumph on Marks face Jared walked inside. What met him inside the door, confused him even more, for there, just inside the door, Jared was met with one of his small suitcases and his backpack, very obviously packed.

‘’What’s going on?’’

Mark leaned back in the leather chair behind his desk and looked at Jared for a few long minutes, taking in the man he was about to throw out.... had to be said he was going to miss having him around, he was certainly pleasing to the eye and his body was gorgeous with all the work outs he did, and that ass.... man that ass had been a sweet one to fuck... but, Mark knew, in business you had to weed out the bad if you were to survive , and even though Jared had to be one of the sweetest deals he had ever made, it was time to cut him loose, but not before he knew exactly why... He smiled..

‘’Mark? What’s going on?’’ Jared felt a sick feeling gathering in his stomach as he regarded the man leaning casually back in his chair watching him.

Finally, after a few long minutes Mark sat forward, his hands folded in front of him on the desk.

‘’What does it look like Jared?’’

‘’I don’t know Mark, it looks like you have my things packed, but why?’’

‘’Because I want you out Jared, that’s why.’’

‘’But...why? You said you wanted to make a go of it, said you loved me and wanted to make this work...’’ Jared was stunned and confused... what was going on here?

Mark smiled, a smile that never reached his eyes, a smile that turned Jareds stomach it was so cold.

‘’ Jared, I told you what I needed to, to get you to stay... did you really think, I was going to let you walk out on me? Did you really think that fucking a bar man behind my back and walking out was the way it was going to go? What made you think that I would have let you get away with doing that?’’

Jared stood, unconsciously pulling himself up to his full height as he braced himself for what he now knew was coming....

‘’Why? Why are you doing this? If all you were gonna do was throw me out anyway... why not just let me go when i wanted to? Why do this? Why go to all this trouble?’’

‘’Because Jared, no one has ever walked away from me unless i wanted them to, no one... and I have never lost a deal in my life that I did not want to lose... and you had to be punished.’’

‘’Punished?’’

‘’Yes Jared..Punished.... Jesus Jared, you are so fucking naive! Did you really think a man of my position, of my standards wouldn’t be keeping an eye on you? Do you not know that from the very day I met you in that bar I have been having you watched? There isn’t a thing you have done in the last four years and beyond that I don’t know about...not one...’’

Jareds mouth fell open in shock... Watching him? He had been watching him? Jesus Christ... if Mark wanted he could have seriously hurt Jensen ... or worse.... Fuck.

‘’Oh don’t worry you pretty head Jared, I have no interest in your lover any further now.... I am not going to touch him, or have him touched, I’m not that stupid, but I needed to make sure that he would never want you again, that’s what this was all about Jared... It was just not acceptable that you would walk away from me and walk into someone else’s arms... if i can’t have you, if you don’t want me, then I can at least insure that the one you do want doesn’t want you... and I think that is pretty clear now don’t you?’’

‘’You set me up?’’ Jareds voice was nothing but a whisper, he couldn’t believe it... Mark had done all this deliberately, he had made sure Jensen hated him, made sure there was no way Jared could turn to him... hell... he had made sure he couldn’t turn to Chris, Chris would freak and almost certainly attack Mark, and Mark knew it... Mark knew there was no way Jared would allow that to happen to Chris, he knew now that there was no way Chris could know.... oh my god!

‘’Yes Jared’’ Mark smiled as he saw Jared putting two and two together.... ‘’ I would love to see you try and return to your man now, I would certainly love to see his face when you tell him you are only there because I threw you out, how would he take that do you think? Think he would welcome you with open arms ‘Jay’?’’ He said mocking the nickname that Chris and Jensen had used on him...

‘’No, we both know you burnt that bridge good and proper don’t we Jared? And we both also know it wouldn’t be good for Chris to find out either, cause there is no way you can stop him from doing what we both know he will do, and that’s come after me, and I would hate to have to press charges for attempted murder, I mean, you heard him yourself didn’t you ‘Jay’ ?’’

Mark tutted softly ‘’ Imagine have to testify against your best friend in court... but...’’ Mark sighed dramatically ‘’I can’t stop you from running to them, what happens after you do is out of my hands I’m afraid ‘’

Jared couldn’t believe it... Mark had thought of everything, had planned it all out to perfection. He was screwed and he knew it. No way could Jared go back, no way could he go to Jensen now and tell him he loved him, Jensen quite rightly would not believe him and even if he did, it just would hang over them like a cloud and ruin what they had, the question of whether he would have stayed with Mark had he not thrown him out would, and there was no way he could ever let Chris know what had happened, he knew without a doubt what would happen there.

‘’So ‘’ Mark leaned forward and picked up a pen, writing out a cheque, and pushed it forward toward Jared ‘’ Just so you know I’m not a complete heartless bastard, even my opponents get compensation, I am willing to give you a little something to get to where you need to go... give you a start as such....’’

Jared stood up from the chair he had slumped in a few moments before when it had hit him what Mark had done, had almost certainly destroyed any chance he and Jensen had of a good relationship, he had even managed to effectively cut Chris out of his life for the foreseeable future, but he was damned if he was going to take money from him now like a cheap whore.

Suddenly he was angry, completely and utterly driven by rage and grief at his own stupidity, and he braced two powerful arms on either side of the desk and leaned over, towering over Mark, as he sat in his chair, a completely bored look on his face as he regarded Jared.

‘’You win, you win Mark... that what you wanna hear huh? We both know you have ruined everything for me and made damn sure I can never go back. But you know what?’’

Jared leaned even closer, and Mark could feel the heat pouring off of him as he continued in a low growl.

‘’You will not destroy me, I won’t let you, I have stayed in your shadow long enough I have been a coward to long, and you will not beat me now, if you were looking for the satisfaction of seeing me crumble, you were sadly mistaken. I will go, frankly the thought of you makes me want to throw up now, but one day Mark, one day you will regret this, that I can assure you’’

And with more bravado than he felt, Jared walked to the door, picked up his suitcase and backpack and walked out the door. He was at the front door, back straight when Marks voice stopped him in his tracks.

‘’Don’t bother taking any of the cars Jared, hell don’t even bother with the bike, I’m pretty sure I will get some scrap yard to take it in the morning’’

Jared didn’t even turn around, he couldn’t, Mark would see the tears that had been building.....

‘’Oh and Jared? Please don’t be naive enough to think yours was the only sweet ass I have had in four years...I mean, yours may have been the tightest and sweetest, but I have needs you know?

That was it... Jared had heard enough, been humiliated enough, and for the first time in his life, Jared lost it... and next thing he knew Mark was on the floor a massive bruise already developing on his cheekbone and Jared was standing above shaking with rage.

‘’Don’t you ever come near me again, if you ever come near me or any of my friends or family again... ‘’ At that he controlled himself, and straightening his back walked out the door, leaving a stunned and not a little awed Mark behind.

Standing outside the main gates, Jared let himself wonder for the first time where he would go now... what was he going to do? The anger that had carried him when he had said those things to Mark deflated; leaving Jared devastated and scared....

Home, Jared would go home.

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