magser | Release Me

Title:Release me
Chapter 11/?
Author:

magser
Pairings:Jared/omc; eventual Jared/ Jensen ; Chris Kane and others
Disclaimer: I'm sorry to say neither of the pretty boys belong to me.....
Rating:NC17
Summary:Jared Padalecki is a good man,trapped in a dead marriage,what happens when he falls in love with someone else?What will he do when forced to choose between the husband he feels he owes and the man who owns his soul?
Word count :2,335
Authors note,: This is completely un-betaed , all mistakes are my own stupid fault! Also just to tell you guys that this fic was inspired by a song, Martina MacBride: Satin Sheets.Oh and now I may as well tell you guys, I didnt post yesterday, cause even though I have written a few chapters ahead, the story has completely run away from me, and no matter what i try it just wont go the way I want it to... It insists on going its own way lol....

Jared stared at Mark in horror,

‘’what? No... Mark, no...let me do this alone, please don’t rub it in his face by being there when I tell Jensen’’

Mark threw Jared a hurt look ‘’Oh baby... Jared that was never my intention! I just, god I just want to be with you ok? I’m afraid, what if he talks you around? What if you decide to stay?’’

‘’I’m not going to do that’’ Jared sighed ‘’I told you I would give this a shot and I meant it, I’m not going to go back on my word now’’

Mark walked over to where Jared stood facing the window, looking out onto the vast gardens, and slid his arms around Jareds waist, Jared immediately stiffened

‘’Mark, don’t, you promised we would do this on my terms for now’’

He pulled away from Mark and walked over to the opposite end of the room, and Mark huffed an impatient sigh.

‘’Jared, listen to me, what chance do we have if you can’t even be anywhere near me baby?’’

‘’I know... I know, Just, give me a little time alright?’’

‘’Ok, ok I can do that... so, are we going to do this together?’’

‘’Mark please, I won’t do anything I swear, just let me go alone, I will come straight back I promise’’

Mark had had enough, he wasn’t backing down on this and it was time Jared accepted that.

‘’Jared listen to me now, if you insist on going to meet this man and telling him its over face to face, if you insist that it’s the right thing to do to tell him you have agreed to give your marriage another try, then we do it together, I’m sorry baby, I may sound petty and selfish but you are not going to meet your lover alone!’’

He softened his voice and continued

‘’I have agreed to back off and give you the space you need, I have even agreed to you using a separate bedroom Jared, don’t rub my face in it by leaving me here while you go meet him...I will even stay in the car, I won’t leave it, you can go in and talk to him on your own, just, don’t go alone.’’

Jared knew that look on Marks face when he saw it, it told him clearly that while he may be asking he was in fact telling him his mind was made up...and he found he didn’t care anymore...he couldn’t bring himself to care anymore. What he was about to do just ripped him apart inside and he felt like he was dying, but he knew it was the right thing to do. Who was he to just decide to walk out on a four year marriage just like that? What right did he have to think he could leave Mark after what Mark had gone through to keep them together, he owed him this, and he owed him a shot at saving their relationship. Although the way he felt at this present moment in time he would never be able to let Mark anywhere near him again. He sighed...he would just cross that bridge when he came to it... for now though, now he was not only about to look Jensen in the face and tell him it was over, he was going to rub his face in it by having Mark there.

Half an hour later they were on the road, Mark insisting they travelled in the biggest flashiest most comfortable car he owned, stating after a week of hotels and a restless night last night after their talk he was having at least this comfort. Jared refrained from reminding him it was his choice to come, it just wasn’t worth the hassle now. Instead he spent the whole journey staring sightlessly out of the window feeling worse as they drew closer and closer to their destination.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this, last night he was supposed to have gone to Jensen and they were to start their life together, he was meant to have given Jensen the biggest surprise by landing once again unannounced, but one he would have loved, but now... now he was arriving to break his heart, and Jared’s spirit was crushed.

Eventually the journey he normally loved but now hated, came to an end and in his distressed state, Jared never questioned or even realised that they hadn’t asked for directions, but just had arrived outside the bar in the small quaint town and Jared felt sick.

He sat rooted to the seat, staring out of the darkened car window afraid to move, he couldn’t do it, oh god he couldn’t... Mark reached across and gently touched Jareds hand where it lay clutched in a tight fist on his thigh.

‘’Jared?’’

Jared jerked at the sound of his name and stared at Mark face ashen ‘’Mark, I...’’

Mark smiled and nodded ‘’It’s ok, it’s ok Jared, you don’t have to, I will go see him’’

‘’No!’’ ‘’No, I will, just stay here...’’

Mark nodded understandingly and, taking a deep breath, Jared stepped out into the sunshine and faced the door of the bar.

Inside, Jensen sat at the bar, doing the books and chatting to Chris who had arrived back late the night before. Chris was strumming on his guitar, all the while having a blast ribbing Jensen about Jared and what had gone down while he was away. Jensen of course hadn’t stood a chance last night when Chris had taken one look at his face and seen joy pouring out of every part of him. The story had come out over beer and a long night talking and Jensen had never felt happier. He knew the road ahead wasn’t gonna be easy, and he had no idea when Jared would make it back down, but he knew Jared would come back, and he knew without a doubt that Jared loved him, and thats all that mattered.

The door to the bar opened, letting in a strong ray of sunlight that temporarily blinded both men, and it wasn’t until the door closed again that they saw who stood there, dressed in an expensive black pants and white shirt that made his skin glow with a healthy brown colour.

‘’Jared?’’

‘’Jay man!!’’

Chris stood and walked towards Jared, and after the usual knuckle touching and bear bug, Chris finally took in the man in front of him and was shocked at the state Jared was in.

‘’Jay? Whats up? Whats happened man?’’

‘’Chris, I need to talk to Jensen, Is that ok?’’

Chris took in Jareds face, He was pale, whiter than white behind his normally tanned features, his eyes were red and he had bags lingering underneath and his tall muscular frame was shaking.

‘’Jared? Is everything ok? You look like shit man...’’ Chris tried to inject humour but failed miserably as the look Jared shot him told him.

‘’ok, I will be upstairs alright? Just come up when you’re done’’

‘’I’m not staying Chris... I’ve got to go, but I will call you, I promise...’’

Chris took one long final look at Jareds face and swore inwardly, that bastard... Mark had gotten to him, he just knew it... damnit... god he wanted to punch him, he had never seen Jared look so bad but he recognised the signs of Marks handiwork in the tense set to Jareds shoulders and the dead look in his eyes, only this time.... god...

‘’Jared, what’s he done?’’

‘’What? Chris please... let me talk to Jensen alone for a few minutes... please’’ Jareds voice cracked with the strain of trying to hold it together and Chris gave in and stepped aside, this was going to be bad...

‘’Jen, I will be upstairs’’ and he left, leaving the two men facing each other across the bar room floor.

Jensen stood rooted to the spot he was standing in after he had risen from the stool. Jared approached him slowely, his face drawn and pale, and Jensen knew... he just knew.

Jared stood close to Jensen now and held out his hand in a pleading fashion, and Jensen walked straight into his arms.

Jared crushed Jensen to him until Jensen thought he would never draw a breath again, but he held on, because this was Jared and Jared was shaking and so obviously barely holding it together.

‘’Jay? Talk to me... whats happened?’’

Jared drew a shuddering breath and let go of Jensen, taking a deliberate step back.

‘’ Mark and I, we talked last night... I told him, I told him I was leaving... told him I loved someone else...’’ Jensen smiled at his words, this was the first time Jared had mentioned the word love and Jared continued,

‘’We talked a long time, he... he begged me Jen, he wants to give our marriage another try... I owe him that’’

Jensen felt his heart crack in two, because he didn’t need to hear any more, he knew, Jared wasn’t coming back, he was here to end it...and he suddenly was angry... so angry...

‘’He got to you... he talked you round... what did he do? Promise you a new bike if you stayed? A new house? What?’’

He moved away from Jared before he let fly and stood with his hands clutched into fists at his side as he faced an ashen faced Jared

‘’No! Jesus Jen! He is my husband for Christ’s sake! I at the very least owe him one shot at saving our marriage... the things he told me... what he has gone through to keep us together... please try and understand, I owe him at least a chance’’

‘’What was I to you huh? Just a little bit on the side Jared? Do you normally go around giving off the hurt vulnerable vibe? How many men have you gotten to fuck by using that story huh?’’

Jared stopped in the process of moving toward Jensen and lowered the hand he had held out.

‘’I deserve that, I know I do... but please, please try and understand, I love you... and I know you don’t believe me now, but I do, and I’m sorry as hell that I’m doing this, but I have to...’’

‘’You know what Jared? You’re a coward! You’re a fucking coward! When are you gonna grow a backbone huh? When you gonna stand up and take what you want? Live the way you want to live?’’

He stepped up into Jareds face, his heart breaking and just needing to lash out.

‘’Fuck you Jared... Fuck you, you know what? Thats all you were anyway, a good fuck... go on... go back to your precious husband and your money and you’re lonely fucking existence.... don’t come back here, if you walk out that door now, don’t you ever come back here!”

Jared took a deep steadying breath and nodded, tears now pooling in his eyes as he lowered his head, not able to face the broken hearted man in front of him anymore, Jensen was hurt and he was lashing out, he knew that, hell he deserved it.

‘’I’m sorry Jen, I’m so fuking sorry’’

At that moment the bar room door opened again and when it shut, Jensen saw a tall well built, well dressed man standing there, clear blue eyes focused immediately on Jensen and Jensens skin crawled at the look of sheer possessive cruelty in his eyes.

‘’Jared? You ok baby?’’ Jesus, this man was an actor, Jensen thought as he watched Marks face soften as Jared turned in horror to face him.

‘’Mark? You promised you would stay out! You said you would let me handle this!’’

‘’I know, I’m sorry Jared, but you were gone so long, I was worried’’

Jensens stomach turned at the looks this man shot him and he just wanted rid of them both before he crumbled in front of them.

‘’Get. Out... Now! Both of you, leave my bar, and don’t ever come back’’ He snarled and Jared took a step back, bracing his hands on the bar for a moment before looking to Jensen one last time

‘’I’m sorry’’

‘’GET OUT!’’ He wasn’t going to be able to hold it in much longer, they had to leave.

Mark stepped up to Jared, and Jensen almost missed the look of triumph in his eyes as he spoke softly to Jared never once taking his eyes off of Jensen.

‘’ Come on Jared, let’s go, there is no more you can do here’’ and he took Jareds hand in his and led him out of the bar.

Jensen stood in the middle of the floor and prayed Jared wouldn’t look back, if he did he was going to fall apart and beg him to stay, but Mark led him firmly out the door, only to be met head on by a furious Chris.

Even at the height disadvantage Chris looked formidable and his eyes sparked with fury as he stood facing Mark.

‘’I’ve stood by long enough’’ he said as he spoke steady and low ‘’ If I ever find out, ever, that you in anyway have harmed a hair on Jareds head, I swear to you now Peters, there isn’t a rock you can hide behind, because, believe me, I will find you, and you will pay’’

Mark titled his head slightly while beside him Jared stiffened ‘’ Chris, now where would you get the idea that I would ever harm Jared? Even Jared can tell you I have never once touched him with anything but concern and love’’

Chris’ face broke into an ugly sneer ‘’you have done enough here today, just go!’’

‘’Jared’’ Jared stopped and turned at the sound of Chris voice calling him, and Chris pulled him into a hug and whispered ‘’ Call me ok? And be careful’’

Jared nodded silently and stepping away got into the waiting car and he was gone.