magser | Release Me

Title:Release me
Chapter 10/?
Author:[Bad username or unknown identity:  ]
Pairings:Jared/omc; eventual Jared/ Jensen ; Chris Kane and others
Disclaimer: I'm sorry to say neither of the pretty boys belong to me.....
Rating:NC17
Summary:Jared Padalecki is a good man,trapped in a dead marriage,what happens when he falls in love with someone else?What will he do when forced to choose between the husband he feels he owes and the man who owns his soul?
Word count :1,734
Authors note,: This is completely un-betaed , all mistakes are my own stupid fault! Also just to tell you guys that this fic was inspired by a song, Martina MacBride: Satin Sheets.Oh and now I may as well tell you guys, I didnt post yesterday, cause even though I have written a few chapters ahead, the story has completely run away from me, and no matter what i try it just wont go the way I want it to... It insists on going its own way lol....

Saturday dawned and Jared missed Jensen so much he could barely function. He had left Jensen just after lunch the day before, with promises to return as soon as he possibly could get away. What Jensen didn’t know was, there was no way Jared could stay here with Mark any longer, not now, not after what he had shared with Jensen. He simply could not bear to have the man touch him again, and he was going to tell Mark tonight and surprise Jensen by just turning up on the doorstep that night. He knew Chris was due to return the night before, and he couldn’t wait for the look on his friends face when he saw what had gone down.

He spent Saturday afternoon quietly packing his bags, not wanting to take anything but his clothes, he wanted nothing of this house, nothing of the stuff Mark had lavished him with, the cars would remain in the garage, all he wanted was his bike. He had already had a long conversation with lucy, and she had tearfully hugged him and promised to send on the rest of his bags with one of the drivers before the weekend was out. Behind Marks back of course... Jared couldn’t imagine he would like his driver being used to ship his stuff to his husbands lover...

By seven pm on Saturday evening Jared was wound so tight he could hardly breathe. Where the hell was Mark? He was never this late back from a business trip.... never...by eight he was damned tempted to throw back a shot of whiskey, when he heard Marks voice out in the hallway.

He stood nervously, taking a deep breath as Mark entered the living room and walked over to Jared, arms out, not noticing the bags sitting by the door.

‘’Jared!! Oh babe, it’s so good to see you!’’ Mark made to pull Jared in for a kiss, but Jared tensed and turned his head and stepped back.

‘’Mark... we’ve gotto talk.’’

Mark eyed Jared for a moment, it was show time, and then he allowed a hurt confused look to flash across his face at Jareds actions.

‘’Jared? What is it? Whats wrong? Is it your family? Has something happened?’’

‘’No, no they are fine, I... I’m sorry Mark, there is no easy way to say this but, I’m leaving.’’

Jared finished the sentence on a rush of breath and waited for the inevitable explosion, he was ready for it, but was stunned at the response he got instead. Mark looked shell shocked and took a step back, stumbling onto the couch and falling down on it, staring at Jared blankly...

‘’What? I don’t understand.... leaving?’’

‘’Yes... I’m sorry, I really am, but I have only just come to this decision, and it wouldn’t be fair to drag this out any longer.’’ Jared looked worriedly at Mark, but determined to follow this through.

‘’But....why? Jared... I .... god... I don’t believe it... you’re kidding me right? This is a joke to make me see you’re pissed at me yeah?’’

‘’No, no Mark, I’m not pissed, I...’’ Jared heaved a sigh and continued ‘’I fell in love with someone else Mark I’m sorry’’

‘’Someone else?’’Mark paled visably and seemed to grope for words ,

‘’you’ve been cheating on me?’’

‘’I’m so sorry’’ Jared whispered ‘’ I know its bad, but I cant help it, I don’t want anything from you, I swear, I will just take my clothes and get on the bike and I will ask for no more I swear Mark.’’

‘’Jared, Please... lets talk about this ok?’’ Mark held up a hand when Jared made to interrupt ‘’Please Jared, you owe me this much, let me try and understand before you go’’

Jared nodded his head and when Mark patted the couch for him to sit next to him, he moved to the armchair and sat on the edge.

Mark heaved a shaky breath and allowed his eyes to fill with tears as he looked at Jared.

‘’Ok, Ok I know you cheated, but, I can forget that ... I know it’s probably my own fault baby... I neglected you, treated you like a trophy instead of a husband and I’m sorry... but please..please ..’’

He raised a tearstained face to Jared once more.

‘’Please let me try to make it up to you... don’t just walk out without giving me a chance...please... I’m begging you baby’’ He scrubbed a hand over his face and when he pulled his hand down he looked gaunt and frightened and Jared was stunned, Mark had never shown this much emotion in all the time he had known him.

‘’I Love him Mark ‘’ he pleaded with Mark, trying to get him to understand the depth of his feelings for Jensen ‘’I love him... he loves me.. .and I’m sorry, I’m so damn sorry, but I cant stay’’ and he made a move to rise, but was stopped in his tracks as Mark went down on his knees in front of the chair he was sitting on grasping Jareds hand and pleading.

‘’Please...please don’t leave me Jared’’ His voice broke on a sob as he continued ‘’Please... we have a marriage... surely that means something... it used to mean something... give us one more try baby, I will make it up to you I promise... I will spend the rest of my life loving you so much... please...’’ He looked up at Jared and saw the torment on his face and knew he had one more shot and he pulled it.

‘’I... god.... I swore I would never tell you this, but... If you’re gonna go, you should know...’’

‘’What?’’

‘’I lied when I said the business hadn’t suffered the last four years after we got married... Clients pulled out of deal after deal... telling me they wouldn’t deal with a faggot... wouldn’t make deals with someone who openly loved another man... thats why I spent so much time away on business .. I refused to bow down to their petty demands, I refused to back down on my feelings for you... I almost lost everything and I had to work twice as hard to get it back... to make a secure future for you and me...’’

Jared felt like he had been punched, in fact he wished someone would punch him, it couldn’t possibly feel half as bad as this did....Mark had gone through so much, had fought for them.... and this was how he repaid him?

‘’ I know it’s my own fault for thinking I could secure our future and you would understand, I should have told you the truth from the beginning’’

‘’Yes you should, I could have helped, we could have done this together.’’

‘’I’m so sorry baby, It’s my fault, and if you give me... us, another chance, I swear I will never lie to you again... I will never leave you out in the cold again... just please... don’t make all this have been for nothing, give our marriage another try’’

The tears poured freely down Marks face as he stood and walked over to the drinks, reaching his hand out for a whiskey, before determinedly squaring his shoulders and turning to face Jared again.

‘’No more drinking...I wont drink any more, I wont travel... to hell with the business let it suffer... I just want the chance to make this up to you... give me a chance... don’t I deserve at least a chance?’’

Jared felt like his insides were being ripped apart right there in front of him, he was dying inside, because he knew Mark was right... Mark and the marriage had to have meant something and if he didn’t give it a shot... then he was no type of man at all.... but he loved Jensen so damn much... he felt like he was going to die...

His emotions must have shown in his face, because Mark walk tentatively toward him...

‘’Baby I know this hurts, and you’re confused, and you want to go to him, but, we both know you will never forgive yourself if you at least haven’t given us another try? What chance does another relationship have if you can walk so easily out of this one without at least giving me the chance to make it right...I’m just asking for a shot... just one, we can start again, I wont touch you I swear, not unless you want me to, it will all be on your terms... just please... please ... give us a chance... give me a chance.... I don’t know what I will do if you walk out that door right now... I think my life would be as good as over.... please, please if you want to go after we have tried for a period then you can go, with my blessing and my heart... but please... please...’’

Jared bowed his head and a single tear slipped down his face as he raised it to Marks tearstained pleading one again...

‘’Ok...ok... we will give it one more shot... you deserve that...I just...’’ he couldn’t continue and his shoulders shook with the effort of holding back his sobs of rage at the unfairness of it all...

Mark smiled to himself as he watched Jared crumble, Jesus did he really think he could just have walked out the door? Did he not realise that Mark knew him better than he knew himself, and that all he had to do was spin a few lies, and shed a few tears and Jareds sense of loyalty and goodness would win over his stupid love for this other bastard, oh yeah... Mark always knew Jared was too good to be true, and this just proved it, this just went to show you, you couldn’t show weakness and a heart as pure and good as jareds was only a weakness..... Mark was not done yet... not by a long shot...

‘’I know baby... I know, but you will see, you have no idea of what I have planned for you, I swear, I will see to it that you get everything you deserve, if it’s the last thing I do’’ And he placed his hand gently on Jareds shoulder as he sat there with his head bowed... completely defeated and more broken than he had ever felt in his life.

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