magser | Wrong again

Title: Wrong Again
Author:

magser
Chapters:1/1
Rating: Pg13
Summary: Jensen's heart had been broken once too often
Pairing: past Jensen/ David B; future Jensen/Jared
Word Count: 1,080
Inspired by the song : Wrong Again by Martina McBride
Authors Note : I wrote this a while back, before I started Missing, and

garvaldmains posted it in her lj at my request anonymously, cause I was shy... So now I post it in here, cause I feel a bit braver, and you were all so encourging.... just to tide you over till i get into the meat of a fic im working on...I would love to know what you guys think

Jensen wasn’t the naturally open and trusting type, it took a lot to get him to open up to anyone, never mind let someone into his heart. But once Jensen gave you his heart, it was the most precious gift he could give anyone, and anyone that knew Jensen knew this.

He was an actor, trying to make a name for himself, in a hard business, in a tough town, so it was no surprise to anyone if he kept the fact that he was gay to himself, and only those closest to him knew it.

He didn’t have affairs or one night stands, it just wasn’t his style. He was too guarded, too afraid of having his heart trampled on as seemed to be the norm with him.

So when he was introduced to David Boreanez at a party by his best friend Chris, it was a huge shock to Jensen and to his friends when he fell and fell hard and fast.

David was everything Jensen had ever needed in a partner; he made him laugh, his brown eyes sparkling with amusement as Jensen laughed, he was considerate, kind, and a very generous and loving lover.

They had their moments, both being very passionate people, meaning that when they clashed it was spectacular … even more spectacular when they made up and made love like their very lives depended on it.

They set up home together after a few months, and Jensen was no longer afraid who found out he was gay … let them say or think what they liked … he had his love, his life, his partner and to him that’s all that mattered.

He was happy, they were happy, for two years they lived and laughed and loved and nothing mattered nothing … he thought this was it, that David was the one, no more tears, no more broken hearts, no more long lonely nights, David kissed away every fear, every tear he had ever cried.

He built his whole life around this man for two years, trusted that his heart was safe in David’s hands …

How wrong he was …

He never saw it coming, never suspected. Long nights away (he was filming ...), less frequent touching (he was stressing about the show ...), lovemaking stopped (he was exhausted filming the best show he could trying to keep the show alive ...).

David packed his stuff one morning and said he would send for the rest in time … said how sorry he was but he couldn’t see this working anymore … that Jensen would be ok and with a kiss on the cheek he was gone …

Jensen was stunned, in shock, this couldn’t happen … wasn’t happening and his friends rallied round. Chris telling him that David would be back, he had seen this before, David would soon realise how much he loved Jensen and he would be back to loving and laughing in no time at all … and sure didn’t all couples hit a rough patch … they would be fine …

Wrong again.

David never came home, never came back for his things, just sent his family round to collect them, and two months later the news came to Jensen that David was engaged to be married to a wonderful girl and he seemed to have even forgotten his lover’s very existence.

Jensen was devastated, knew he had to get out and away from L.A., so when the offer of the role in Smallville came to him he jumped at it and moved straight to Vancouver as far away from his memories and David as he possibly could get.

He swore he wouldn’t make the same mistake again. He worked hard, earned the respect of his fellow actors and crews, for his no nonsense attitude, hard work and quiet, shy personality. He made friends in Tom and Mike, even went out for the odd beer, but generally kept to himself, always staying at home after work. The pain was like a constant throbbing ache in his chest where his heart used to be. He was sure he would never feel anything good again. Many a night was spent crying himself to sleep, feeling stupid and weak for his tears and if his co-workers noticed his tired red eyes after a night spent crying, they never mentioned it.

His hard work payed off when he was offered a co-lead role in a new show called Supernatural, still filming in Vancouver so he could continue to hide away. He was still reserved and quiet, even on the day he was introduced to the other lead Jared Padalecki.

Jared with his cat like eyes, and easy smile, his laid back attitude and fun loving nature...

He didn’t even feel it happening, never knew how Jared had started to pull Jensen out of himself, and before he realised what he was doing he was teasing along with Jared, teaming up with him to prank various members of the crew. Jared made it easy to be around him, seemed to know when to pick up the slack in interviews when it became too much for Jensen, knew when to push him and knew when to back off.

So by the time Supernatural wrapped up the first season and was guaranteed a second, Jensen was laughing easy with the crew, having nights out drinking till dawn with Jared, mocking and hugging and laughing like his heart had never been broken.

Jared never asked, he seemed to know instinctively what Jensen needed, and not once pushed him to tell him about David … but Jensen did one night.

Just sat down with a cold beer in Jared’s back yard and told him the whole sad and sorry tale, before proceeding to get blind roaring drunk and falling asleep in a heap on Jared’s couch … waking up the following morning to fresh coffee and Jared handing him a mug when he stumbled into the kitchen.

Jensen had thought losing David had broken his heart for good, had thought that the pain he had felt for so long would never ease.

He had accepted he would never again find a love better than what he had had … had thought his heart would never heal enough to let someone in again.

But as he watched Jared’s face light up the room with that beautiful warm easy smile as he greeted him, he thought...

Wrong Again...